A special flashback friday..

To my almost two year old son,

From that moment I first met you almost two years ago my life has never been the same. It has grown and expanding in ways I never could have imagined. Even as I sit here thinking about the love I have for you, I struggle to put that into words. I know everyone says you won't know what it feels like to be a Mom until you are a Mom... I find myself in the same space saying the same thing.

This I do know. For me motherhood has never been a burden, it has been hard at times in the past two years running on very little sleep and trying to get things done that need to be done. I never looked at it as I would rather be doing something other than being a Mom in this moment. I don't know if that is because I waited until we were ready, or if it because a Mom is truly something I have always wanted to be. The rewards of you are bountiful. You capture joy in the toughest of times, you have made our lives so much better. Each stage over the past two years has brought new twist and turns, and the smallest of things became the greatest. I looked forward to seeing you walk, watching you run, that laugh, that smile, the excitement you bring in the little things. You are my best accessory, you are more amazing than I ever could have dreamed you would be. I know that this world is yours for the taking, and that you will do great things in this life. I have more grey hairs since the moment you were born, I am thankful for this blessing of you that we have been given. The hardest part of the past two years has been knowing how to keep this love in a way that gives you independence and letting you grow from a baby to a toddler. Although I am amazed you were ever so small, and how far you have come and sad at how fast time is slipping by me, I try to be thankful that I have been able to be there and present to take it all in.

I can not wait to see what the next year will bring us, and the one's after that. I am so proud that you call me Mommy.

Love,

Mom